okay.. so i knows like like super early to my picking out first dance wedding songs but i reeeeeeeeally want this to be mine. the lyrics are just beautiful and just really describes my love. i love it so much, everyday i listen to it :')

i haven't blogged in ages!

wow. i can't believe how long it's been since i blogged but you haven't missed much at all, its all just been coursework-age and workies. boredum.com. but let me tell you how much you kinda missed... 

these lasses. i love alot. 

so.. on the 19th of March was Jess's birthday, i had my new dress which i now loooooove, i really think i suit green, with my hair an all that so i must purchase more of it! so we went to that new thai restaurant in town but i have to say, it was okay food but we got completely ripped off.. plus, jess didn't really want to stay because she hated the people behind the bar ahahah! but afterwards, we walked all the way up to Jess's for a major sesh. was fab! defo needed all weekend off work to bloody recover!, but yeah i got a new nickname.. 'nips' the call me... why i here you ask? because my friends, my nipple fell out, but not for like a second, for like a minute because i didnt even notice! someone yelled 'omg she's got her nipple out!' and i said 'omg who? ahahaha' only to realize that it was infact. me. but i'd just like to thank Jessie J for a fab night, defo is one to remembered! ♥♥♥




OH AND ALSO! I GOT INTO MIDDLESBOROUGH COLLEGE! 
my word. i am very very very very very excited, it's actually amazing and super huge! i cannot actually wait, although i have like no friends that go there ahahha! & my friends won't join me there :( but yeah, if anyone knows of anyone going.. lemme know iiii? 

peace out. 

a true friend is the greatest of all blessings

DAY 18.

disrespecting parents.. nothing frustrates me more when people say 'your parents know best' because they actually do. Its very annoying. but sometimes, you may have to disrespect them to experience things for yourself, not exactly all the time obviously because then they just loose trust in you but i definitely believe in learning from your mistakes. I don't know how people can have parents who are very very strict and it's all about good grades etcc, because then you can't experience life for what it is, especially if your a teenager. also, if you did disrespect your parents, they have probably done the exact same or even worse.. i thought i'd done some pretty bad stuff but was more disappointed in my mum in what she'd told me ahaha. Your parents make who you are today but you also have to learn from yourself and your own actions to realize who you truly are! 

MY CHILDHOOD

this song came on the TV last night and it made my realize how much i actually love it. has one of them catching dance routines as well.. if you listen, it may be stuck in your head for ages!   

DAY 16 & 17

3 things that i am proud of about my personality.. well i'm not exactly proud, but i guess i like some things... but it's just so hard to think when your put on the spot like this.. i'm trustworthy, i can be honest but i kinda take peoples feelings into account. i can't think of a third one tbh! ehehe.

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3 things that make me scared

• like evil people. murderers, rapists, kidnappers. but i'm not too worried about kidnappers, my mum said they would just get sick of me and bring me back.. i think thats a good thing maybe?
• spiders. i'm like Ross of 'F.R.I.E.N.D.S'.. i hate spiders, i can't even describe how much i hate them.. they are awful, i wish they would become so extinct.. they are just so frickin' ugly that i can't count them as insects. with 8 legs and 4584795 eyes.. they are awful. nuff said, as i am creeping myself out even thinking about the bastards. 
• loosing any of my friends or family. i can't imagine my life without any of my family or friends, they are what makes me, me. and without them, i would turn insane. i am possibly the worst person ever at grieving, my mind wonders and its just so painful

I am also scared of scary films... i hate scary films. like saw.. what kind of person thinks of things like that.. its not entertaining. its damn right disgusting. end. 

DAY 13, 14 & 15

I would love to go on date either on a lovely hot day in paris :') have a picnic in a beautiful garden with a view of the Eiffel Tower and then just lay and make shapes out of the clouds whilst listening to music in the background. I would also want to take lots of pictures for memories  :') but then, i couldn't resist but go to disney land ehehe! wow, that would be amazing... or i would love to go somewhere abroad and just sunbathe, take a dip in the pool and lay on golden beaches. Then have a lovely meal on a balcony overlooking a gorge sunset. 

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Yeah, i don't really do anything disgusting.. i do bite my nails as a habit which is pretty horrid. 

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My week.. well it's been okay really.. pretty average, nothing special has really happened, but today was a nerve racking day because i got my science results and my maths resit results.. yeah, i didn't do better in my maths but i still got a B which i think is pretty good :) but for my science i got an A and B which i found was preeeeeeetty fab.. ver ver happy! 

i am also loving this new text

DAY 11 & 12

one of the many photos i love of us.

relationship life! i love it. i have never been happier and i love my boy lots and lots! yeah, we have our little bickers, bur who doesn't? they are easily overcome without people putting their nose in. i love how he is my best friend, and ooh! we might be going on holiday. it isn't official or anything but oh my god it would be amazing. i am really trying not to get my hopes up but im just too darn exciteddd! we have such a good time together and have always wanted to go in holiday :') 

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I wouldn't really want to say anything to my ex's.. obviously none of them worked out so theres nothing really to say.. one of my previous relationship lasted very long so i would like to thank him for the lovely gifts..  he was my primary school love :') ehehhe
most of my ex's, now are dickheads so pretty glad i ain't with them now, but most of them seem pretty content so i guess that all i can say is 'have fun in the future'. ehehe well cheesy but what else is there to say.. :)

jealousy.

i really wish i knew why i get so jealous, i think it's our distance from each other if i'm going to be honest! but whats even fucking worse is that i like encouraged him to have friends that are girls and i absolutely love the girls that  he's friends with, and i know that he wouldn't ever do anything with them because he loves me and i trust him with my whole entire life. i hate how paranoid i get, like i make such a big deal out of nothing because so what if they stayed at his house, he wasn't the only guy there and they didn't stay in the same room so i don't see the big deal.. what i honestly think it's down to is that i guess i know how 'ambitious' girls can get when their pissed and how vulnerable guys can get when their pissed. but what i hate is that i have lots of friends that are boys and he has been jealous which is completely natural but i kinda told him that it was ridiculous to be jealous (i didn't exactly blurt it out like that) and now i am. god, i've never known such a horrible feeling! and it makes me out to be such a hypocrite. but now that we've sorted it all out, i'm much more happier :) so horrid when you can't give that person you love cuddles when you need it most.. but everything seems so much brighter when you have a good cry :) 
  i also watched 'taken' which i one of my favorite films but then i watched a bit of 'the human centipede' and i hated my life, its so disgustingly minging that i was scared. and also mummy is back from her weekend away so looking forward to my presents since she left me :) ehehe. 

peace out. 

DAY 10.

DRUGS. 
to be completely honest, i hate drugs. except prescription drugs help you get better so i suppose their okay :) but class a/b/c drugs i just find completely pointless and awful, yes i have come across drugs once before in my life but i hope it never happens again. half the people on jeremy kyle are crack heads and have you seen them? horrid is an understatement. if you take drugs doesn't make you cool whatsoever and if you even know about the side effects :|.. i find the government party to make cannabis legal is just a complete joke, seriously what would the world turn into? i think people wanting to try drugs has gone up after watching skins! those people are actors kids!


ALCOHOL 
so i like alcohol, but i only go to that 'limit'. only once have i ever been so drunk that i've thrown up and it was awful! i'm one of those people who likes kinda 'fruity alcohol' like jacques or alcopops. i HATE beer or lager. urgh. like drinking piss, not that i've ever drunk piss but you get the drift. i hate the fact of alcohol when you drink like every night and its like 'EHH M8, GET MI SUM VODIE TONYT YH?' to be honest,  you don't need alcohol to have a good time but some wouldn't go unharmed :) sometimes people use alcohol feel the need to cheat or to get into fights or just to make themselves feel better, that kinda defeats the object. although it can make up a good night with your friends, having a laugh and feeling confident. 


overall, i prefer alcohol far better than drugs. 

peace out

life of gummy bears. 

perfect date. 

i really want to punch someone square in the face.

i HATE attention seekers!
so yeah, going to take pictures with my best,

peace out. 

DAY 9.

currently, my last kiss was off my mum :P she went away for the weekend so i gave her a kiss on the cheek to say byee! but my last real kiss was off antony like weeks ago when i left his house; won't get another one until like 5 weeks maybe? :(


wow that was a short blog, so i will show you a tattoo i really really want!

i absolutely love this tattoo, i think it's so beautiful and just advertises the element of being free

i love these tattoos because i love the look of the old victorian keys and the secrets behind them

i adore this song from adele, she has the most beautiful voice. 

DAY 8.

i worry for too much. i always think about what will come about things if they go wrong.. pretty much, i am currently shitting myself about getting some of my exam results. i'm one of those people that beats themselves up constantly if something goes wrong, i hate to fail. I know you have to learn from your mistakes but i always get myself worked up over nothing. i honestly think i may have to resit my science but i'm so hoping i won't have to! and i honestly don't know about my health and social.. i was worrying like hell about my recent maths exam because i always put myself down at maths, even though people see me as quite good at it. TBH i just worry all the time about my school work, i need good grades to get into boro college, and then i worry if i don't get into that. 

i just have thiat feeling that i want to escape into the sunset with my boy, and just lead a life where everything was perfect.i seriously envy them people who have the brains, the beauty and just everything really.